New season, New blog!

A new season means a new blog! Learning to let go of the past season to embrace the inspiration and beauty that's right in front of me. Finding my new purpose and role in this next chapter of life.

Saturday, February 24, 2024

A puzzling season

 









I've gotten on a puzzle kick lately.  Perhaps it sparked from a little boredom from the winter months, maybe a bit of a need for a "mindless" activity to curb some anxiety over a lot of things on my mind and plate. But all I know is that once I got started, I was hooked. Just as soon as I finished one puzzle, I'd start another. I'd have one going on my desk at home and another one going at the back table at school. There's something so rewarding, challenging, and yet relaxing about doing a puzzle. 

Puzzles make me think about the seasons of our lives. Some seasons can really "puzzle us". And just like those puzzling seasons, we have to come up with a strategy to get through it or our life will just sit in pieces. As I carefully worked on and strategized each of these puzzles pictured, I couldn't help but see how much my puzzle strategies mirrored the way we confront life through brokenness. 

For starters, when all I see are hundreds, if not thousands, of unconnected pieces, I look for the edge pieces first. Then I group those edge pieces with like colors so I can start trying to connect them together. Once I have the border done, I know more about the overall size of the problem, and I have an overall framework. I start at the outside and work my way in. Basically, I have a big picture to work with, and I never lose sight of that big picture as I work to connect each little piece inside. 

When life starts to fall apart and then shatters into a thousand little pieces, looking at the big picture helps us through the overwhelm, reminding us of a bigger purpose already designed. Even when all we have is a border, it reminds us that the small piece we're living will somehow fit into that big picture and will connect perfectly with other pieces I haven't found yet. It's like a promise that my current piece isn't random. 

Once I get the border done, I then sort the remaining inside pieces by color and pattern so I can work through the puzzle one small section at a time. Like colors go with like colors, and that helps me know what can and can't go together. Once I finish connecting all the pinks together, I move on to the greens, the blues, the oranges, and the reds. When there are several colors mixed, I look for similar line patterns that make the connections more visible. 

When life feels so disconnected and overwhelming, I look for the things that do make sense and find the connections that stand out. The easy-to-notice, obvious ways that God has provided and come through for me. I can see how many things in life have easily and clearly fallen into place, and I thank God for those connections. 

After I have the obvious colors and patterns connected, I'm left with the remaining pieces that have multiple colors and patterns mixed that don't seem to fit anywhere. Sometimes I can connect several of them together but still can't figure out how that small section fits in. Until I finally figure out that I had it upside down or that it all fit in after I found one specific piece that I hadn't seen yet. 

These pieces are the hard parts of life that don't make any sense. They can seem so random and out of place, like they belong in another puzzle box, to another picture. But at times we're just looking at it from the wrong perspective, and once we turn it sideways or upside-down, it fits. Or perhaps it truly doesn't fit until we find or experience that one unsuspecting event that turns out to be the piece that connects it all together perfectly. 

The puzzle can really start coming together until you're left with those last few pieces that might just be all the same color or pattern, like the rest of the light blue sky or the dark green grass. To finish up that last tedious section, sometimes we have to readjust our focus from the color and pattern on the piece to the specific shape of the piece. The shape can tell us where it definitely doesn't fit and can help us narrow down the one and only place it will connect just right--to the pieces above, below, and all around it. 

When we finally get towards the end of a particularly puzzling season, when we've seen God work things out and paint a better picture than we ever expected, we're still left with those last few pieces that can honestly just blur together. The pieces that we keep turning to God for, asking him how they fit and why they have to be there. Can't we just be done already and move on? So we just focus on our survival skills until the season comes to an end, putting one foot in front of the other, taking our eyes off of the picture and just making it work. 

One by one, the pieces fit together, and then we put that last piece in to complete the puzzle. It's such a rewarding feeling to know you persevered, you strategized, you made a battle plan, and you accomplished your mission! And now you have this beautiful picture made out of all these pieces that didn't seem connected at all. 

There's nothing like seeing God give you that last piece of a puzzling season, finally seeing how each piece truly did matter for the picture to be complete. To see how certain events that made absolutely no sense actually connected perfectly with other events to paint a picture you never would have imagined. 





I love seeing a puzzle come together, both on a table and in my life. I love making new connections that I didn't see at first. It got me thinking that every season of our lives is like a puzzle that eventually comes together and makes sense. But it also got me thinking about God's perspective, how all of our little puzzles will eventually all fit together into one giant puzzle. All of our own personal puzzles are connected to everyone else's personal puzzles, and they all create one large picture of God's story that He's revealed to us through Scripture and that He's continuing to bring to pass. A picture of eternity. The big picture we should always look back to and remember that we're all part of a bigger story. 


Sunday, January 28, 2024

Just keep walking


There are the pretty days of winter, when the snow falls so gently and covers the earth with a beautiful blanket of snow. There are the adventurous days of winter where we bundle up in our coats, hats, gloves, scarves, and boots in order to find enjoyment on.a snow-covered hill with a sled in tow. There are the cozy days of winter when it's too cold to venture out anywhere, so we make a hot drink, curl up with a blanket, and sit by a hot fire to stay warm. There are the hopeful days of winter when we've been cooped up for days, and then we see the sun shine and begin to melt all the snow. 

But then there are the dreary, foggy days that have nothing to brag about other than a damp cold that nobody wants to be out in, and nothing but gray, foggy skies to cloud our vision for what is ahead. The lack of color and sunshine can dampen anyone's normal cheerful mood, and the lack of clarity can bring a real sense of gloom. 

Not much to take a picture of on a day like today, but I took the picture anyway. And I still put my walking shoes on, bundled up with an extra layer, zipped up my rain jacket, and tied my hood over my head to block the cool breeze from blowing in my ears. 

Seasons are like that. There are days when we can find beauty to appreciate, see the silver lining, or figure out a way to make the best of things. There are days when we give ourselves a break and allow our minds and bodies to get some much needed rest and relaxation while we wait for brighter days ahead. There are days we smile with relief when we start to see the light at the end of the tunnel and our hearts stir with renewed enthusiasm. But there are also those cold, damp, dreary days that can threaten to steal our joy and just make the future look bleak, foggy at best. 

Those are days that are much more emotionally unbearable than physically. It's not too cold to get outside. In fact, we don't even need all that much extra gear to bundle up in. Perhaps an extra layer, a pair of gloves, a rain jacket, and something to cover our head. We're not going to freeze (or sweat), nor are we going to get drenched in any kind of downpour. They are the days we need to just "pull up our pants", zip up our jackets, and push ourselves through. Through the mundane, the clouds, the fog, the depression, the lack of clarity, etc.

Be present, don't give up, and just keep walking. Every step counts. Every step matters. The fog will eventually lift so we can see the road ahead more clearly. If we didn't have gray days like today, we wouldn't know how to fully appreciate the sunshine when it does come back around. 


Saturday, January 20, 2024

Why winter?

It's the middle of January, and we're not quite into the middle of winter yet. But the temperatures have been in the single digits recently (it's currently 1 degree outside where I live), and we woke up to a beautiful blanket of about two inches or so of snow.  This week in school we've made fake snow and did snow themed art. When my students arrive today after an hour delay, we'll be writing about snow days and reading/reciting poems about a white wonderland. I've got the fireplace going with calm jazz music in the background. I've got my cup of coffee sitting beside me, and all that's missing is a comfy chair, a blanket, and a good book to curl up with and read. 

These temps have had me thinking about the season of winter lately and why God added snow and freezing temperatures into the cycle of seasons He created. It's really cold, uncomfortable, requires a whole different wardrobe, it gets dark so early in the evening, and our activities are severely limited at times. 

Winter seems to be a lot of work (especially when you want to heat your home naturally with a wood stove constantly full of firewood and a hot fire inside.) It takes longer to get dressed if you need to go outside for anything. Any activity requires much more effort than in other seasons of the year. It's harder to go out for a walk and breathe in the nature all around me when my nose and fingers need to thaw out after just a few minutes outside. 

But could it be that God's original design for winter was not to add extra work but extra rest? Could it be that we're supposed to take advantage of the longer days of sunlight and warmer temps to do the extra work in the spring and summer so we're prepared to stay inside during the winter? Could it be that we're supposed to give way to the "lack of life" (loss of leaves) and to strip ourselves bare of all the extra activity (like the bare trees and flowerless fields) and let our minds, bodies, and souls recover from the busy months, trusting that a new, fresh season full of life and vitality will follow this one in due time?

Like a Sabbath day meant for rest and reconnection/trust in God's provision, perhaps the cold winter months are God's original design for our rest, recovery, and trust in Him for all that's yet to come. 

I think finding a good book sounds like the perfect investment of time for the weekend ahead. 


 

Friday, January 19, 2024

A friend for every season


My sweet friends from LakePointe Church Firewheel

These friends here, and many others not pictured, became so much dearer through the season of COVID separation.

These are the friends I dug into Scripture with before, during, and after COVID. The friends that met together on Wednesday evenings for women's Bible study, on Saturday evenings (or Sunday mornings) for church and Life Group, on Zoom for Bible study, or on my front porch to talk about Biblical friendship and to pray for, encourage and fellowship with each other.

I cherished those friendships and that time together talking about Scripture and our growth in our relationship with Christ before that spring and summer of forced separation and isolation, and we were determined to find ways to trudge through it and stick together. We continued to stay in the Word and find ways to encourage and pray for each other through those hard months. We still found safe ways to gather and grow together. But when the doors opened back up for us to congregate together again, those relationships felt even dearer, stronger, and more meaningful. We no longer took our coffee dates or Bible study groups for granted. They meant and mean so much more now. 

They're friends for any season, really. Each one in this picture is special to me in a unique way. But all together they represent an essential part of life. They represent a priceless relationship and friendship that can only be found among sisters-in-Christ. A provision that design that God always meant for us to have and to lean on throughout our lives. A gift that is always available if we just take the time to look for it. 

I miss this particular circle of friends in the picture, but I love that they represent my new growing circle of more sisters-in-Christ that I've now met and developed similar friendships with here in Columbus, Indiana. Whether near or far, each one of these friends fulfills a huge need and void in our lives for the season that they're there, just as God designed. 

Friends from New Song Mission


Friends from Texas that loved on my son when he got hurt

A friend who goes deep

A friend from a marriage group

That friend who always finds you the right shirt

Friends from my new church Community Group


A friend from Colombia who knows my whole Colombian story and saw me through it


A new friend in Indiana

New Counseling Partners friendships


Church friends in Texas that go way back

New friends in Indiana at a women's weekend gathering

New fellow adoptive mom friend

A new friend with an instant connection

Friends from camp at New Song Mission

A Discipleship group friend

Best place in town to make new friends at a women's night out at Terrace Lake Church

Friends from New Song Mission


Friends from a church Community Group outting


The dearest of friends and fellow teachers

A friend that will always be family

Not pictured: All the friends that aren't quickly accessible in pics on my phone. 

Moral of the story: 
Friends (especially sister-in-Christ-friends) are essential through every season of life. Never take a true friend for granted or miss an opportunity to connect--especially over a hot drink, where the most meaningful conversations take place. 




 

Wednesday, January 17, 2024

A season of teenagers

Sometimes God sends us friends in such unsuspecting ways. My friendship with Amy is a prime example of that.


David started middle school right after we adopted Juan, and he jumped right into the youth group at church and all of the mission opportunities it offered. He happened to get to know a special girl on those first few mission trips who he ended up dating through most of high school. That sweet relationship opened up just as sweet of a friendship between her mom and me. A friendship that accompanied us through our young teenagers years of dating, through a season of high school, through a season of teaching second graders, through a season of our kids going on mission trips, and then a season of college. Though our kids eventually stopped dating each other, they still went to youth group together, went on all the same church trips, went to the same high school, and then attended the same college. These shared experiences between our kids gave Amy and me a lot in common, but we also taught the same grade in the same district, attending many of the same trainings together. It seemed the more we talked and went out for coffee together, we found out more and more things we had in common. 

We joked around with our kids in the beginning of our friendship that we were besties just to mess with them. But over time, that's exactly what we became. We've laughed together, played together, dined together, hung out as families together, rode Sky Screamers and roller coasters together, gone on day trips together, studied the Bible together, gone to church together, prayed together, cried together, and shared a lot of deep conversation over coffee together. We held each other up through some pretty hard stuff, and I couldn't ask for a better friend over the last several seasons into the present, raising our kids together from the end of middle school till almost the end of college already. 




 

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